best journal update eva!

ugh.goin to look for apts. i hate my life. i hate everyone.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

Yeh...went to Chuck E.'s for my birthday. That damned rat made me get up on the booth and dance while they sang to me for an ice cream sandwich. But we pigged out on pizza, and got a shitload of tickets. Got a cool little crown out of it too...But...Yeh...Sanchez got kicked out of his apartment. Actually he's getting kicked out tomarrow night. So Chipmunk and I are gonna stay there one last night. Just to make sure that his roomie doesn't do anything stupid. But I'm starting to think that maybe coming down here was a bad idea. I mean, it seems that nobody really likes me as much as they put off. Maybe people in Lewisville are different than San Antonio. Maybe I'm just a little too bad or something. I don't know, but it bothers me. It seems like even Chipmunk is against me sometimes. And the DDR at Gameworks is EXPENSIVE! It's like, 1.75 for 3 songs. I can't wait till we get back to San Antonio, which should be this weekend from what I hear. I can't wait! Cheap DDR!!Yay.But I'm tired. I think my schedule is like, finally rearranging itself to the time difference. I'm going to bed and waking up earlier than usual. It's workin, so I don't care. But yeah, I'm gonna head out. Peace out yall~Lioness~

booooorrrring....

Chipmunk and Haywood are out playing Super Smash Brothers on Gamecube. And I'm being reminded of how much of a bitch Jen is. I mean, Mooch was cool until he dated her. She's warped him more than I ever could. At least I was all cool about it. You know, like, perverted warped. She's just turning him into an asshole. So I decided that I was going to cut ties with like, everyone that's up there. And now I'm bein freaked out by the damned thunderstorm. It's FREAKIN ASS LOUD!!!! I mean, we've had some summer storms before in PA, but NOTHING like this. It's kinda cool...But anyway...Yep. I'm done with the assholes. I'm cutting ties with EVERYONE up there...save a few people, and they know who they are. But I'm gonna go, we's gonna go watch a movie. And I might be going to Hooter's for my bday...I'm trying to decide which is cooler...Hooter's or Chuck E'sBut...::leaves::The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!Here is how you matched up against all the levels:LevelScorePurgatory (Repenting Believers)ModerateLevel 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Very LowLevel 2 (Lustful)Very HighLevel 3 (Gluttonous)LowLevel 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Very LowLevel 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)HighLevel 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Very LowLevel 7 (Violent)ExtremeLevel 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)Very HighLevel 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)HighTake the Dante's Inferno TestHm...violent...duh...

Wow...I'l...

Wow...I'll be 19 soon. Chipmunk wants to go to Chuck E. Cheese's with me for my bday, along with Sanchez and Haywood. It might be fun. We went swimming today, and rode around on the bike a lot. Went to CiCi's for an eating contest between Chipmunk and Haywood, but Chipmunk got sick and puked...5 times...in 3 spots...It was soooo gross. But I actually have part of the town mapped out now. I drove all by myself from Chipmunk's to Sanchez's place...only got lost for a couple of minutes. It was pretty cool. But now Tomcat is like, begging me to go to El Paso, and I'm like, FUCK NO cuz I just spent 2 DAMNED DAYS in a car. So like, no man. But now is time to go to sleep again. Matt, if you read this, email me. Need to talk to you. But yeh...byes...

ugh

I finally made it. Damned rain. Damned long journey. Fuck me for not telling my mom goodbye in person...But more later, I'm too damned tired to think

Fuck the world...and Aphrodite

Wow. I stayed up this late to see if the guy I was talking about earlier would get on. Now I don't think it's gonna happen. I hate my life. I hate this world. I hate everything. I also hate the fact that Chipmunk is still on the road. He better be safe. I miss him. But. I'm going to bed. I hate you fucking men!!!!!! Especially the one I like!!!!!

more quizzes...am I bored or what?

Evil, I say...Evil... You're the Wicked Witch ofthe West. Ah yes your sister got killed so youare quite jealous of the North? Well, itdoesn't mean you have to try and kill Dorothyand her new friends... You die anyway so whatthe heck... Which witch are you from The Wizard of Oz (North, West, East)?? brought to you by Quizillahmm, this seems to be a going pattern...lol...The Wicked Witch of the West Which Wizard of Oz Character Are You? brought to you by Quizilla

Wow....

Wow. I just had this crazy dream during my nap. In it me and a guy were like, talking, then all of the sudden we got close. And I mean CLOSE! We walked to the end of the yard, and then he's got me pinned against the wall about to fuck me, and my parents come walking down to work on the fountain. My mom's friend looks at us and said, "Ya know guys, I think Snoopy intervened in this for a reason." My mom agreed and told me maybe I should go to bed. I looked at her and was like, "I'm 19 in a few days, and YOU'RE telling ME to go to bed? I'm leaving for TX in..." and I woke up. The weird thing is, I'm not telling my mom until the day I leave. I don't live with her or answer to her, so what's it matter? The bad thing is, I know who the guy in my dream was. He doesn't know that I like him, but if he had gotten to me before Chipmunk, I wouldn't be going down. I like him a lot. I'm just not sure how to tell him. I think he might suspect, but hey, let's keep it that way. DJ Lite will fuck my ass up if I screw things up with Chipmunk. I mean, everyone is all of the sudden convinced that we are going to marry. Dee especially. He and I said our official goodbyes tonite, because he said that he wanted to get away with giving me one last kiss goodbye. He went and saw Cee today, and amazingly, she told him she knew it would happen eventually, and that she didn't mind because it was me. So I can go see her without fear of verbal whiplash. She'd also have forgiven him if more had happened. I just wish that it could have been that way with me and Chipmunk. Luckily he knows that me and Dee are great friends, and we were just fucking around to test each other. But anywho. Kyraeus is telling me that I have to make a choice about my dream. Apparently I have avoided thinking about it, so now that Chipmunk will be here in less than 24 hours, it's coming back to bite me in the ass. Yeah, Chipmunk left today. I love him soooo much for doing this. My only thing is that I won't see the guy that I'm talkin about. Maybe this is a good thing. Because if I stay with Chipmunk, I get freedom and all my dreams come true. Almost all anyway. If I stay here, I'll be happy with this guy, but I'll sacrifice freedom. I mean, I don't even know how to approach the subject that I like him. Should I tell him? It might get it off my chest...But I'm gonna go, apparently the nap wasn't enough. I talked to Dee for a little, he came by to drop off my rabbit, and I was still tired then. It's worse now. I'm just nervous...very much so. But I hope to write one more time before I go, so look for it then!~Lioness~

woo, more quizzes! =^.^=

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Wow. To...

Wow. Today is Saturday. Chipmunk leaves tomarrow to come up and get me. We might go to Hersheypark, but I dunno yet. But onto other news. D and I have been hanging out a lot lately, and we ended up getting a little closer than I wanted to. It was fun and all, but now I have to face C, and I don't think that's gonna go good. They are like, my best friends, and they are married. I mean, it's cool and all, but I really don't want to have to face her and tell her that I'm practically engaged and I was making out with her husband. It's not gonna go over very well. But Idxgdy is here, so I have to run. Time to go get some much needed nicotine. More possibly later!~Lioness~

weird shit

Ya know, I was sitting here thinking, and I keep tripping myself out over how me and Spag used to talk in the mornings. I was talking with him at work one time, and I told him like, how I used to have a crush on him. It was weird, cuz he said he felt the same. Ya know, I wonder where we would be today. Would we be dating? Cuz we are like, awesome friends now, but it's one of those things where ya gotta think of where you might be now, had you taken the chance to reveal feelings. Would I be moving to Texas? Would I be with Chipmunk? I mean, Chipmunk and I didn't start talking till LONG after me and Spag met. But it still has me wondering...I got a bday e-card from Spag, and another one from my "secret admirer." I still wonder if that was him. He said no, but maybe it was....ya know? But I'm gonna go. My aunt had me catch a kitten today, and even though I'm not supposed to name him (her?), I called it Bubbles. Well, he's meowing, so I'm gonna go take care of him...

The...

The Matrix sucks...cuz this is what the guys do on their free time. That's pretty bad...http://www.astercity.net/~tobik/pingpong.html

Dude. Drewb...

Dude. Drewbie just stopped by. He finally got rid of all his cars save 2. That's amazing. But he's like, so happy, cuz he has a new girlfriend and all. He's convinced she's the one. That's good. I'm glad to see him happy. Brandi comes down tomarrow. She wants to spend as much time as possible with me before I go. We're down to what...9 days officially? YAY! DAVID COMES ON MONDAY!! Well, I hope he does. He might not be here until Tuesday. Then I leave like, that Friday or something like that. I can't wait. Warmth, swimming pools, and motorcycles! YAY! But...yeah...I'mma go. More later.

Duh:...

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stupid journal

man...it better update this time...i hate you...Chipmunk, call me. I miss you. I want to hear your voice. I need laid...stupid porn stories...I hate them...and people offering don't help...Ky, you know you want me ;)

wow, beer is awesome

Today's Date: 07/28/03Leo (7/23-8/22) Why is it such a surprise that you're still so splendid and powerful? Your lover thinks the world of you. You found someone who can sustain this level of excitement with you. Now the fun begins all over again. Chipmunk, is that true? I LOVE YOU BABY!!!!!!

woo

Wow. I leave for Texas in about a week now. Chipmunk leaves on like, Sunday, which means that I could be gone in a week! YAY!!! I mean, the beef up here is just getting to the point where I can't take it anymore. I mean, as far as I know, there is like, NOBODY that I can just chill with without having like, serious guilt problems about one thing or another. That and I've tried getting a job since Sbarro's, and nobody seems to want me. Summer work or otherwise. There must be something wrong with me. Doughboy hasn't called or stopped by or anything, and he's the one who wants me to come and see him like, every damned New Years for his bday. I don't want to come back period, cuz I know I'll find a reason to stay here. But Christmas and New Year's are like, planned. But on to other things. Ebon's house was great, but he tends to be a little insecure about things. We got drunk, and I spent like, an hour talking to him trying to convince him things are worth living for. And that's a big step coming from me. Why is it that I'm only intellectual when I'm drunk? And man, Bodak was fucking HOT! I was like, OMG when I saw him. X-Man was cool, but he's just another "Yur crazy, I like that" kinda thing. I'm like a cross between the two of them. I don't think that Ebon liked that, but hey, he was worth seeing. He's always listening to what I say, I just feel bad. I know he's gonna read this, and I know I'm gonna catch shit for it, but he fell for me pretty hard. And he's less than subtle about it. I know people like me, I know I seem to be cute and crazy and all the things guys like, but hey, it's not gonna work out with anyone, other than Chipmunk. I'm sorry, but that's just the way things are. And I know how I should be honest to people's faces and all, but hey, this is the only place I can bitch about it without catching hell right at that moment. It works. But maaaan, am I actually glad to be home. I mean, I like it up there in Bumfuck nowhere, but I like cable and the internet and actually being able to walk and end up somewhere other than even further in the middle of nowhere. Cities are great. I mean, if I live in a farmhouse, it's at LEAST going to have neighbors around me. Their closest neighbors are like, a yard and a half (city backyards I mean) if not more away from them. It takes 5-10 minutes WALKING to get there! Uh uh, not for me. And Cheney, omg, that fucking cat is on crack or something. My fingers are the proof of that. She decided to use me as a chew toy. Stupid cat. But at least she's cute. But man, I'm like, out of things to say. I might update later, if I ever figure out where I put my little "Stick this in the livejournal update" paper. But hey...things go that way, ain't? Seeya later!

woo!

Wow, lots of things going on. I went out with Brandi last night. She decided to huff with some friends, and I almost killed her. I couldn't believe she would do something that stupid. I ended up going home instead of spending the night. I swore to her that if I ever find her doing that again, I would kill her. I mean, huffing is such an idiotic thing to do. It's so freakin addictive and like, can kill you after one hit. I told her weed is alright, but anything else and I won't talk to her again. It's just stupid to do those things.But on to better news. I'm going up to Ebon's house until Sunday night. I can't wait. We go to a concert tomarrow, I think. He said something in his email about a goth-rock concert. I'm curious as to who Sam is. Apparently he's the one driving Ebon down to get me. And mostly, this info is for Chipmunk. I miss him. He's leaving the 3rd to come and get me, so that means he'll be here by the 5th at the latest!!! YAY!!! I got 11 days left to wait! Then I'm gonna be warm and happy and riding a motorcycle in San Antonio! WOOHOO!!!!! I can't believe that I leave in like, a week and a half. Because the way I figure it, Dave only has off from work until the 10th. Which means we have to leave like, the 8th or 9th to be back on time. Things are finally getting done! I still have to go through all my shit and like, pack up the stuff I'm leaving here. I've got to find a way to get Baby down there, though. She's like, this REALLY old doll that I've had since I was about 2, and she is one of the ones with the beating hearts and all. I never gave her a name, so for 17 years I've been calling her Baby. Weird. But I'm almost 19 as well! I want to get a tattoo for my birthday...I'm gonna have to figure out a way to do that. IF I get any birthday cards in the mail, my mom is gonna open them and take the money out. I just know it. I won't have an addy down there for at least 2 weeks, so all my mail will be forwarded to her house till then. I'm just mainly worried about my license. How do I get it transferred over to a TX one? And how long do I have to do it? Oh well, guess I'll worry about that down there. Mostly I have to find a job first. Then I get to go see Kris. He wants to sleep with me, but I won't let him. I've screwed up too many times with Chipmunk, he can only hold so much forgiveness for me, ya know? I want him to know he can trust me. OH! That reminds me. I saw Bowers again today. I went for a walk (a bad thing since we rolled the car, man that hurt >.<) over to DJ Light's house, cuz me and my aunt like, had a really bad fight. So I went to talk. Walking back, I took the Rail Trail, and walking by the bus station, there's Bowers. I just like, watched him, kinda tryin not to look up, when I hear him call me! I'm like, what the hell does he want, is he gonna try to beat me up again? I mean, last time I saw him I walked away with a miscarraige and God knows how many bumps and bruises and scratches. So he like, walks up and starts asking how I been, and then has the audacity to tell me he was sorry! I'm like, for what, making me lose my baby or putting me in therapy for a month? Just leave me the hell alone. And he like, got all depressed looking and tried again to apologize. I just walked away. I mean, I put that shit out of my life. I don't ever want to deal with that part of my life ever again. It was a couple months of drugs, sex, arrests, and beatings. I'm never going back, and I can finally say that I don't remember most of it, and won't try to ever again man. I know enough that I won't try anything I did back then. I'm just gonna go back to San Antonio and be happy. That's all there is to it. But yeah, I'm goin now. I got to pack and all. Chipmunk, if you read this, make sure you don't try calling until Sunday night some time, preferably not until Monday. I love you, and I miss you. But to everyone else, see ya soon, I'M GOIN TO TEXAS IN A WEEK AND A HALF!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ugh

Wow. I woke up this morning and hit my knee on the dog treat tin. Then I throwed up. THEN as if things weren't bad enough, my two little brothers came to visit. Brothers = no privacy. So now I'm sitting here practically having a nic fit. And I found out that the oldest one is going to get put in a group home. He's got ADHD, ODD, and Bipolar. And he's gotten so bad that my mom won't even try to discipline him anymore. She's afraid of him, and he's only 12. My family (except for my dad, he's just an asshole) is so scared that he will turn out to be like Zach Witman. I mean, the age difference is a little less with my brothers, but it seems like something that Bubba would do to Guppie. I'm so scared for them. I don't want him to go, but what else is there to do right now? But on to better news. Ebon wants to take me up to his place for the weekend. I'll find out later today if it's gonna happen. I want to, but I'm also scared of what might happen. I trust him, I just don't trust myself. But right now Brandie is on her way down here, so I have to go meet her soon. The dogs are barking, the rats are trying to eat my newspaper, and everyone doesn't feel good. Blah!

Love sucks...

Well, I talked to Chipmunk about what I did with Ebon. It seems we are still together, but I don't think he trusts me very much. At least he is trying. I mean, I don't blame him, but hey...Oi, this journal is an obsession for me or something...either that or I'm REALLY bored...probably bored...But this is our conversation. I can't decipher most of it anymore, I'm too damned tired. Anyone else care to comment and try to understand it?Chipmunk: hey what's up?PrincessKadar: oh...hi...PrincessKadar: you off early tonite?Chipmunk: actually I was with Jamila for a while. she came over at 7:30. I was napping for a while before thenChipmunk: tomorrow I won't be so luckyPrincessKadar: ahChipmunk: how are you?PrincessKadar: read my LJ and you might understandPrincessKadar: i hacked my friend's computer todayPrincessKadar: then i watched rocky horror with ebon...doing all the audience participationPrincessKadar: that was cool...Chipmunk: sounds like a fun timePrincessKadar: um..yeh...thats what it was...Chipmunk: good...PrincessKadar: http://www.livejournal.com/users/darkbeethoven/PrincessKadar: sorry, that most recent entry is why i wasnt talkingPrincessKadar: you there?Chipmunk: I'm looking at your sitePrincessKadar: ohChipmunk: but I'm losing consciousness as well so maybe I'm half herePrincessKadar: i cant lose consciousnessChipmunk: cool. how's that working for you?PrincessKadar: i just cant sleep, thats allPrincessKadar: i have no job, no money, and no life...whats the point of sleep? =^.^=Chipmunk: no life? wasn't Ebon just around earlier?PrincessKadar: yeh...youll read about itChipmunk: SpongeBob, eh?PrincessKadar: yehPrincessKadar: now im just looking for something that will explain the black zodiac to me in more specific terms...i might try the library when i get up laterPrincessKadar: i still have to clean tonitePrincessKadar: soChipmunk: that sucks.PrincessKadar: nehPrincessKadar: cant sleep, might as well do somethigPrincessKadar: something*PrincessKadar: i cant type...damned wrist...PrincessKadar: damned limp...PrincessKadar: DAMN EVERYTHINGPrincessKadar: grrr...PrincessKadar: lolChipmunk: hehe growlerPrincessKadar: grrPrincessKadar: ::pulls out bronx accent::PrincessKadar: dont piss me awfChipmunk: you keep unusual hoursPrincessKadar: i always havePrincessKadar: ::sigh:: and besides, im still waiting for your reaction once you get down to the entry before all the quizzesChipmunk: you mean about screwing things up with Chipmunk?PrincessKadar: pretty much dudeChipmunk: yeah what's up with that?PrincessKadar: exactly what i said...i almost fukked up againPrincessKadar: made ebon feel really bad and shit...Chipmunk: so almost but didn't?PrincessKadar: nopeChipmunk: so how is Ebon?PrincessKadar: he went home upset because i was upset...hes gonna call me and try to come over again before i go. if he doesnt, well, he's gonna wait until i come back upChipmunk: do you wonder why you're alive?PrincessKadar: sometimesChipmunk: and who is this best friend you found?PrincessKadar: The Nudist...that's his nickname...Chipmunk:: cool. I must go nowPrincessKadar: okay...yur not pissed then?Chipmunk:: well I am. my trembling figure is a good indication of that. it happens when I forgive a lot. the more I forgive the worse it gets when bad stuff happensPrincessKadar: yeah...i just couldnt believe it...all of the sudden i just though, dude, what the hell am i doing? i cant screw this up...Chipmunk: your behavior sound like mine in some of my dreams. I screw things up every now and then in my sleep and get all worried but I can always wake up and realize it never happened. you on the other hand can'tPrincessKadar: i just need to stop seeing anyone...period...PrincessKadar: all i do is screw things up when im around anyone elseChipmunk: that is one possible solution but it doesn't sound like it would be much of a way to live. but I must see how you are around mePrincessKadar: how did i seem down there?PrincessKadar: i mean, ill never stop flirting...i dont realize im doing it half the timePrincessKadar: but...when im with someone, i dont fuck around...not usually...when im drunk its a WHOLE other storyChipmunk: you seemed at ease for the most part. you just lead a different life than what I'm used to. its my adventurous side that seeks out the new which has made me a more tolerant and open minded personPrincessKadar: my adventurous side gets me into a bunch of shit...hence the reason im usually singleChipmunk: heh good ol adventure. but now I really must goPrincessKadar: okay...PrincessKadar: have a good day at work...as good as it can beChipmunk: tomorrow is delivery only so it shouldn't be too bad. I get the morning offPrincessKadar: coolChipmunk: so I can contact you during a daylight hourChipmunk: yayPrincessKadar: its cool...im probably going to sleep most of the dayChipmunk: good night and sweet dreamsPrincessKadar: night hun...love you...Chipmunk: i love you too hun, take careThe bullshit that is like, just general stuff has been taken out, of course. But that's pretty much what the conversation consisted of. I don't know what to think. And Nudist is like, not around to discuss it with. I miss him. Want to go to his house, but it's like, 2 hours away, Reading or something. And then there's Sean and his brother in Bloomsburg...Dammit, why is it that when other people need to talk, they always find me, no matter where I'm at, yet when I want to talk, nobody is around? And like, Chipmunk just got on again, but he's not saying anything...what happened to sleep? But...I'm gonna go clean. I doubt anybody will read this or really even care anyway, so...why bother? After the novelty runs off, I'm sure it won't be as interesting. And I still have the cheap imitation on ddrsa! YAYISH! Wow...bad attempts at chearing myself up. It's not working. I really AM wondering why I'm alive now...DAMN YOU APHRODITE!!!!

Oompa Loompa... ::repeats in a monotone::

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Which cute or possibly strange kitten are you? brought to you by Quizillaimg src="http://images.quizilla.com/V/vizz/1035282164_ll-and-eat.gif" border="0" alt="I'm going to Hell because I kill children and eat them!">You kill and eat little children, and probablymolest their corpses.You're not tryinghard enough, though, because there's stillplenty of assholes in the world! You might goto Heaven if you can thin the herd a bit. TheLord hates fuckers hanging around and messingup His Creation, after all. HOP TOIT.Sicko. Why Will You Go To Hell? brought to you by QuizillaKitty Goth What Kind of Goth Are You? brought to you by QuizillaI KNEW that would come back to haunt me...I MISS MY KITTY EARS AND TAIL DAMMIT!You are a WANNABE NON-VIRGIN. What Kind of Virgin Are You? brought to you by QuizillaLMAO, I WISH!!! =^.^=Black:PEOPLE SUCK THE WORLD SUCKS EVERYBODY SHOULD BEKILLED AND BLEED TO DEATH TILL THE COLD EARTHSOAKS IN BLOOD. Well, you're angry at theworld. For reasons who knows, but youdefinately hate life. [Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<a<br>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.]Woo, check it out! Have fun...are you gonna do them all too?<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/R/Ruri-chan/1056289714_Ainsanity.JPG" border="0" alt="You represent... insanity."><br>You represent... insanity.You're quite a quirky little creature. You're<br>emotions are varying. You may appear childish<br>and innocent, but you have a tendency to freak<br>out. You're incredibly random, but it's good<br>to be unique. People know you're an odd one,<br>but you certainly don't mind.<br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/Ruri-chan/quizzes/What%20feeling%20do%20you%20represent%3F/"> <font size="-1">What feeling do you represent?</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font>=^.^= Big suprise!<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/F/frozenebony/1048039446_pRACHELSB7.jpg" border="0" alt="Transgender Barbie"><br>You're Transgender Barbie! You're well, there's no<br>way to describe you. Pick a sex and stay with<br>it!<br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/frozenebony/quizzes/If%20You%20Were%20A%20Barbie%2C%20Which%20Messed%20Up%20Version%20Would%20You%20Be%3F/"> <font size="-1">If You Were A Barbie, Which Messed Up Version Would You Be?</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font>I've got one word... O.O<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/I/ItalianPrincessLauren/1043975671_JunkSpirit.jpg" border="0" alt=""><br>SPIRIT is your chinese symbol!<br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/ItalianPrincessLauren/quizzes/What%20Chinese%20Symbol%20Are%20You%3F/"> <font size="-1">What Chinese Symbol Are You?</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font>I like to be FREEEEEEEEE! =^.^=<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/S/SpazMatazz/1042697160_nightgddss.jpg" border="0" alt="MoonGoddess"><br>Goddess of the Night. Beautiful yet a strange<br>darkness and sadness lurk about you.<br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/SpazMatazz/quizzes/What%20element%20would%20you%20rein%20over%3F%20(For%20Girls)/"> <font size="-1">What element would you rein over? (For Girls)</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font>Yep...that's me...<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/1031610610_CMyDocumentsMyPicturesstone.JPG" border="0" alt=""><br>You Have the Power to Turn Things to Stone!<br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/Legowen/quizzes/What's%20Your%20Magic%20Power%3F/"> <font size="-1">What's Your Magic Power?</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font>::turns you all to stone::<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/L/londonbelow/1038911106_rraverbear.jpg" border="0" alt="Raver Bear"><br>Raver Bear<br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/londonbelow/quizzes/Which%20Dysfunctional%20Care%20Bear%20Are%20You%3F/"> <font size="-1">Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font><img src="http://images.quizilla.com/A/angelzashez/1040332327_moodpeople.gif" border="0" alt="eating people"><br>YOU EAT PEOPLE!!!<br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/angelzashez/quizzes/what's%20YOUR%20deepest%20secret%3F/"> <font size="-1">what's YOUR deepest secret?</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font>OMG! THEY FOUND OUT!!!<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/T/thelumbymon/1045346425_zyquizpunk.jpg" border="0" alt="I am punk music!!"><br>Rock on, dude! You are Punk music!<br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/thelumbymon/quizzes/What%20type%20of%20music%20are%20you%3F/"> <font size="-1">What type of music are you?</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font><img src="http://images.quizilla.com/K/Kanemitsu/1040977795_CThequizfry1.jpg" border="0" alt="torture"><br>You would make them suffer<br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/Kanemitsu/quizzes/%20How%20would%20you%20kill%20someone/"> <font size="-1"> How would you kill someone</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font>DUH<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/T/thelumbymon/1053460177_reyoubrian.jpg" border="0" alt="You are Brian!"><br>You are Brian Molko!<br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/thelumbymon/quizzes/Who%20are%20you%3F/"> <font size="-1">Who are you?</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/EmrysWolf/quizzes/What%20Is%20Your%20Animal%20Personality%3F/"><img src="http://images.quizilla.com/E/EmrysWolf/1043103361_tuffbadger.gif" border="0" alt="Badger"><br> <font size="-1">What Is Your Animal Personality?</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font><img src="http://images.quizilla.com/A/acidtongue/1036826257_quizpierce.gif" border="0" alt="pierce"><br>pierce<br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/acidtongue/quizzes/What's%20YOUR%20sexual%20fetish%3F/"> <font size="-1">What's YOUR sexual fetish?</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font><img src="http://images.quizilla.com/L/liquorpig/1051995874_utantkitty.jpg" border="0" alt="IAmAGiantMutantKitten"><br>I am a giant mutant kitten. Not strange at all.<br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/liquorpig/quizzes/Which%20cute%20or%20possibly%20strange%20kitten%20are%20you%3F%20/"> <font size="-1">Which cute or possibly strange kitten are you? </font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font>img src="http://images.quizilla.com/V/vizz/1035282164_ll-and-eat.gif" border="0" alt="I'm going to Hell because I kill children and eat them!"><br>You kill and eat little children, and probably<br>molest their corpses.<br><br>You're not trying<br>hard enough, though, because there's still<br>plenty of assholes in the world! You might go<br>to Heaven if you can thin the herd a bit. The<br>Lord hates fuckers hanging around and messing<br>up His Creation, after all. HOP TO<br>IT.<br><br>Sicko.<br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/vizz/quizzes/Why%20Will%20You%20Go%20To%20Hell%3F/"> <font size="-1">Why Will You Go To Hell?</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font><img src="http://images.quizilla.com/A/arachniabat/1046920917_hkittygoth.jpg" border="0" alt="Kitty Goth"><br>Kitty Goth<br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/arachniabat/quizzes/What%20Kind%20of%20Goth%20Are%20You%3F/"> <font size="-1">What Kind of Goth Are You?</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font>I KNEW that would come back to haunt me...I MISS MY KITTY EARS AND TAIL DAMMIT!<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/S/Saturnia/1034828860_icswannabe.jpg" border="0" alt="Wannabe Non-Virgin"><br>You are a WANNABE NON-VIRGIN.<br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/Saturnia/quizzes/What%20Kind%20of%20Virgin%20Are%20You%3F/"> <font size="-1">What Kind of Virgin Are You?</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font>LMAO, I WISH!!! =^.^=<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/B/blackcat000/1044167423_ack_result.jpg" border="0" alt="You see the world in Black"><br>Black:PEOPLE SUCK THE WORLD SUCKS EVERYBODY SHOULD BE<br>KILLED AND BLEED TO DEATH TILL THE COLD EARTH<br>SOAKS IN BLOOD. Well, you're angry at the<br>world. For reasons who knows, but you<br>definately hate life. <br><a<br>href=http://www.saradover.com>Made by<br><B>Sara</B></a><br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/blackcat000/quizzes/What%20color%20do%20you%20see%20the%20world%20in%3F/"> <font size="-1">What color do you see the world in?</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font>Once again, DUH!<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/C/ColdTuesday/1052864788_Childhooah.JPG" border="0" alt="The Great Child and the Dire Mother"><br>The Great Child and the Dire Mother<br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/ColdTuesday/quizzes/What%20sign%20of%20the%20Black%20Zodiac%20are%20you%3F/"> <font size="-1">What sign of the Black Zodiac are you?</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font>Wow, I wanted to be the Jackal!<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/R/RedHedPhreek/1039500808_inists.bmp.jpg" border="0" alt=""><br>You are the typical feminist, depressed, artist.<br>You go against the crowd and do everything you<br>can to be different. Too bad noone notices.<br>Try communicating with people, not just looking<br>down on them.<br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/RedHedPhreek/quizzes/What%20kind%20of%20typical%20high%20school%20character%20from%20a%20movie%20are%20you%3F/"> <font size="-1">What kind of typical high school character from a movie are you?</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font>WOO!<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/T/teffie/1036281989_CStephanieswearfuck.gif" border="0" alt="fuck"><br>your fuck.<br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/teffie/quizzes/What%20swear%20word%20are%20you%3F/"> <font size="-1">What swear word are you?</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font>Once again...BIG SUPRISE<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/X/xdeadxstarx/1044037678_turesBlack.jpg" border="0" alt="Info Black"><br>Your Heart is Black<br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/xdeadxstarx/quizzes/What%20Color%20is%20Your%20Heart%3F%20/"> <font size="-1">What Color is Your Heart? </font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font>yep... =^.^=<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/S/StudebakerHawk/1058933757_ldenticket.gif" border="0" alt="oompa"><br>You're an Oompa Loompa! Hey, you made the choices,<br>buddy. You're short, annoying, and there seems<br>to be an abundance of you. Go on, get lost. We<br>can get more of you anytime.<br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/StudebakerHawk/quizzes/Which%20Willy%20Wonka%20character%20are%20you%3F/"> <font size="-1">Which Willy Wonka character are you?</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font>Your SPONGEBOB!! your very happy and out going.Mean<br>people dont keep you down!All smiles and laughs<br>to the very end and you always cheer up your<br>friends and would do anything for them you are<br>true blue too even the mean friends.Some times<br>you go overboard but you often let people walk<br>all over you.If some one pushes you dont be<br>afraid to say something(polite).<br><br><font size="-1"><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/iluvducks/quizzes/Whut%20spongebOb%20person%20r%20u%3F!%3F/">Whut spongebOb person r u?!?</a></font><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font>YAY! I'M MY BOYFRIEND!!!!!<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/C/confuzzledkitti/1058933548_ragonchibi.jpg" border="0" alt="Dragon Chibi"><br>You are the Dragon chibi. You're evil, but more of<br>a neutral. You're my double, you be, and you be<br>interesting all your own. You are the dragon<br>chibi! ROAR!<br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/confuzzledkitti/quizzes/What%20(fill%20in%20an%20animal%20here)%20chibi%20are%20you%3F%20O.O%20(yes%20it%20is%20finished%20and%20with%20pics!)/"> <font size="-1">What (fill in an animal here) chibi are you? O.O (yes it is finished and with pics!)</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font>RAWR!Wow...I got carried away...I was bored. But now my baybee is on, so I might not be any longer...I dunno...HAH, I GOT YOU BEAT CODY!!!! =^.^=

dammit, I did it again....

Man, why the hell do I always get myself into situations? I mean, Ebon came over, and it was all cool. We were snuggling, watching Rocky Horror Picture Show, and just bein friends. Now all of the sudden I'm like, all freaked out because of what I almost did. How could I do that to Chipmunk? I mean, when I'm drunk, that's another story. I told him that. But this was all me. I was completely fucking sober. I can't believe how I keep doing this. I don't want to screw things up with Chipmunk, at all. I mean, I've known him 4 years, and loved him almost as long. He has so much faith in me, and I always find a way to screw it up. Why does he still love me so much? I mean...I'm a failure. I even thought about NOT going down simply because I found a best friend--something I've been searching for forever. I just don't know what to do anymore...and I only have 2 weeks to decide. I want to go, but I keep finding ways to screw myself up. Maybe Kyraeus is right...maybe I do just always find ways to fuck myself up. I don't know what else to do half the time. I'm not the typical Leo...I let myself be talked into things. And now I have this funny-ass limp, a sprained ankle, and a sprained wrist. All because I went psycho in my car. I rolled it...and walked away. Should I even be alive here? I don't know...maybe there really IS something out there...I DO know that Aphrodite scares the hell out of me. Why the hell is she sending me visions? I hate my life sometimes....

Du...

Dude, Ebon just called me. He's about 10 minutes away, and I can't wait to see him. I just got my shower and I'm like, all clean and happy now. But what should I tell you? I guess I'll talk about DDR. Everyone is all of the sudden saying that I haven't been playing more than 6 months. That's a load of bullshit, cuz Kyraeus and DJ Light know better. Just because I decided to end my relationship with most of the players (they were acting like children) doesn't mean that I'm a bad person. I mean, all these kids came in and took over the machine, so I stopped playing on friday and saturday nights. Now I play mostly in the afternoon during the week. But on to better news. I leave for Texas soon. Chipmunk is talking about coming up somewhere around the 3rd of august. That's like...2 weeks man. I love it! I can't wait to go "home"! I mean, it's like, awesome down there. A little warm some days, but it's awesome. And we can go swimming in January! It like, never gets below...60 degrees? I think...But yeah. My dilemma is that I want to be with someone up here, because it seems like he's the other half to my deepest darkest soul. I don't know how to explain it. I just feel so comfortable around him. And I don't want to lose that friendship. Also, how do I say goodbye to my mom? She doesn't want me going, and my dad? Forget that asshole. He hates the idea, yet he doesn't think that ANYTHING I do is like, decent or upstanding. Honestly, he's such a hypocrit. But any ideas how I should handle this? I'm open to suggestions, lol! But the phone is ringing again, and that means that Ebon will be on the line, "Where is your house again?" so I gots to go. I love you all!!!"The other day I was at San Antonio eating horses when out of nowhere came this slimy guy. I could tell he had serious phone problems from the get-go. His vagina was all slippery and stank like Legolas. A kitten was hanging out of his pants. He fell down in a puddle of Mountain Dew. I laughed my penis off."-Strongbad MadLib

Wow...my first entry. Took me long enough to get one of these things. Thank you to my friends in San Antonio who helped me!!! WOO!!! But Ebon is coming over, so I have to get a shower and be ready to meet him. I can't wait! He's like, sooooo cool! Buh Bye for now!