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Wow, lots of things going on. I went out with Brandi last night. She decided to huff with some friends, and I almost killed her. I couldn't believe she would do something that stupid. I ended up going home instead of spending the night. I swore to her that if I ever find her doing that again, I would kill her. I mean, huffing is such an idiotic thing to do. It's so freakin addictive and like, can kill you after one hit. I told her weed is alright, but anything else and I won't talk to her again. It's just stupid to do those things.But on to better news. I'm going up to Ebon's house until Sunday night. I can't wait. We go to a concert tomarrow, I think. He said something in his email about a goth-rock concert. I'm curious as to who Sam is. Apparently he's the one driving Ebon down to get me. And mostly, this info is for Chipmunk. I miss him. He's leaving the 3rd to come and get me, so that means he'll be here by the 5th at the latest!!! YAY!!! I got 11 days left to wait! Then I'm gonna be warm and happy and riding a motorcycle in San Antonio! WOOHOO!!!!! I can't believe that I leave in like, a week and a half. Because the way I figure it, Dave only has off from work until the 10th. Which means we have to leave like, the 8th or 9th to be back on time. Things are finally getting done! I still have to go through all my shit and like, pack up the stuff I'm leaving here. I've got to find a way to get Baby down there, though. She's like, this REALLY old doll that I've had since I was about 2, and she is one of the ones with the beating hearts and all. I never gave her a name, so for 17 years I've been calling her Baby. Weird. But I'm almost 19 as well! I want to get a tattoo for my birthday...I'm gonna have to figure out a way to do that. IF I get any birthday cards in the mail, my mom is gonna open them and take the money out. I just know it. I won't have an addy down there for at least 2 weeks, so all my mail will be forwarded to her house till then. I'm just mainly worried about my license. How do I get it transferred over to a TX one? And how long do I have to do it? Oh well, guess I'll worry about that down there. Mostly I have to find a job first. Then I get to go see Kris. He wants to sleep with me, but I won't let him. I've screwed up too many times with Chipmunk, he can only hold so much forgiveness for me, ya know? I want him to know he can trust me. OH! That reminds me. I saw Bowers again today. I went for a walk (a bad thing since we rolled the car, man that hurt >.<) over to DJ Light's house, cuz me and my aunt like, had a really bad fight. So I went to talk. Walking back, I took the Rail Trail, and walking by the bus station, there's Bowers. I just like, watched him, kinda tryin not to look up, when I hear him call me! I'm like, what the hell does he want, is he gonna try to beat me up again? I mean, last time I saw him I walked away with a miscarraige and God knows how many bumps and bruises and scratches. So he like, walks up and starts asking how I been, and then has the audacity to tell me he was sorry! I'm like, for what, making me lose my baby or putting me in therapy for a month? Just leave me the hell alone. And he like, got all depressed looking and tried again to apologize. I just walked away. I mean, I put that shit out of my life. I don't ever want to deal with that part of my life ever again. It was a couple months of drugs, sex, arrests, and beatings. I'm never going back, and I can finally say that I don't remember most of it, and won't try to ever again man. I know enough that I won't try anything I did back then. I'm just gonna go back to San Antonio and be happy. That's all there is to it. But yeah, I'm goin now. I got to pack and all. Chipmunk, if you read this, make sure you don't try calling until Sunday night some time, preferably not until Monday. I love you, and I miss you. But to everyone else, see ya soon, I'M GOIN TO TEXAS IN A WEEK AND A HALF!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!